Charl Dawn

Babysat Tristen, sort of. Went to lon’s early, had sort of a lazy day in, watched Hot Fuzz, Gilmore Girls, Without a Trace, One Tree Hill etc. Played Mario Kart Wii. Hot Fuzz was a goooood movie, not what you expect at all. The advert you could say was a bit misleading, but if they did reveal more in the ad than what the movie holds, I guess the whole story line would have been messed up. But it is funny, they play around with words a lot, and only if you’re sharp and you catch the clues, will you actually get the joke haha.

# Myself, still in my matching pyjamas

# Me again

# Rainbow Drops

# All the money I found left behind in Oyster top up machines

# Lon’s everyday things

# The cute stickers on my sisters PC

# Cute Zebra

My blog stats are low. I haven’t really been bothered to blog recently for several reasons. I’ve just been doing the same thing, either going out with Lon browsing the shops etc, or having days in eating, watching tv, cleaning, laundry (our machine broke down like nearly 2 weeks ago and it finally got fixed the other day) or just going to my Mum’s office. I haven’t been taking much pictures even though I now have a camera, I think I’m just used to not having one, sounds weird right?

It’s nearly been 4 weeks since I finished school, and I’m already feeling abit lost on what to do. Me and Lon are again saving for his car and possibly my own, and it’s kinda hard with like phone bills, me paying for driving lessons, oyster fares etc. I need to find more things to do I think, I don’t know, but I am enjoying my holiday. Plus trying to sort out interviews etc for the course in September is taking quite long, but hopefully it’ll get sorted.

Anyway, I have driving soon so I’ll blog again another time.

I’m gonna be really selfish and just post pictures of me from my new cam teehee. Taken at my Mum’s work event.

#I don’t normally dress this smart, I was going for the “Personal Assistant look” haha.

# Me and my Dad

Us girlies helping out

Before taking down the signs we had to take pictures with them!

Even if it’s been raining all week, I’m happy. Why? Coz I wore a jacket out and got angry when the sun came out and made me sweat. All day, me and Lon got happy when the sky turned grey and it rained.

What else?

# Lon passed his driving test yesterday! I treated him to Nandos.
# I finally got a new camera woo woo! Pictures to come soon
# Went shopping yesterday aswell, bought shorts and new shoes.
# My mum said I can get my own laptop if I want, coz I have my own money now yay!
# I’m just generally happy now haha ^_^

* Waiting for the camera battery to charge, read the booklet, approx 5 hours!! I’m so impatient

This question has been on my mind for ages, and I’ve been asking Lon and Em about it for ages, and for ages I never found the answer. I wondered whether once you cooked vegetables, e.g boiled it or whatever, can it be counted as your five a day, and say if you cook veg, and you eat it like the day after or something, can that be counted as your five a day? I know it sounds silly, but if its not fresh, is that counted? Say like eating tinned peaches, or tinned sweetcorn, can that be counted? Or boiling frozen veg? I don’t know.

Anyway, I was at my mum’s office the other day, sitting on one of the chairs in the corridor/foyer bit, and I was looking at the posters on the walls, and guess what I found..

# My question is answered!

# At the bustop going Tristens

# Vans and sandals

# Bebs bought a big box of Hello Pandas with 10 packets

# Us post-LCC Interview

# Charls

Finally got those pictures from Lon’s camera, and I love them. Made me realise how much I miss my own camera, and how much I miss taking pictures and seeing pictures. Gosh what a saddy.

18th June : Celebrating his last day as a 17 year old and becoming a man

# Starbucks

# Us

# Fresh out the shop

# Finally a man

 
19th June : Lon’s actual Birthday

# Going through my bag looking for his presents

# Shocked

# Happy

# Taking pics while beb is out buying food

# Already wearing his new tee

# “How’s this outfit beb?”

# Taking more pics while he gets ready

# Its odd how I never brush my hair and he constantly does

# While beb brushes his hair

# Playing around with his birthday money from his parents

# Bebs checking my feet to see if they’re dry

# Running to the toilet and taking pictures

# Beb and me

# ‘Into The Hoods’

# Novello Theatre

# My bad attempt at a self timer pic, 2 seconds is too fast!

# Touristy Lonny

# Touristy Charly

* Went clinic today and got weighed. 3 months ago I was 50kgs, 3 months later I’m 48kgs woo woo!

So I guess you could say my lack of blogging is due to my busy holidays =) I have actually been busy, so much so I’m just going to blab everything out, so everything is just going to jump from one thing to another. Things are improving in terms of Uni and all that, there I was thinking I’m just going to do a part time course then do a degree course blah blah. I had my interview at LCC yesterday, and he referred me to a full time course that covers more of what I want to do and starts from scratch, so I’ll make the most of it. He also explained other degree courses, and this morning I was reading about it on the website, and they look really really good. So I guess I can do a design course that is not proper proper fixed on art and design, phew. The weather has been summery too, really hot and I love it.

Me and Lon argued again, and he revealed to me that he semi started planning to surprise me on my birthday, ok maybe not surprise but do something for me. Gah, I eventually was ok with him, but I was so deeply upset that he revealed his secret plans. I love surprises! But when he tries to plan big ones, he always ends up telling me. Sigh, so anyway, we came to the conclusion that he’s going to organise my birthday celebration whatever it may be, which i guess is ok, coz no pressure on me, and now hopefully for certain, something is happening on my birthday hehe! woo!

Driving was meant to be at 1pm, but I waited for an hour and he never came. I tried calling, but his phone was off so blah. The weather is hot again today, but I guess I’ll just complete some left behind things to do from ages ago, e.g clean my room, coz it got turned upside down when I couldn’t find my LCC letter for the interview, and it turned out to be on my windowsill haha, and it’s giving me really bad energies, everything is just everywhere, I feel so lost and unorganized and ergh. Also, I have loads more pictures…on Lon’s camera.. and coz his PC is nearly dead, he can’t upload pictures, and we always forget when he comes here. Sigh, my blog looks so boring without pictures.

Hmm what other stuff before I leave my blog for how many more days..

# Decided to watch friends from the very beginning online. Still in season 1, episode 5 now haha, its so good!

# Went Enfield Library to get some books, and this is a new library. Turned out to be disappointing, Just picked up any random book that was rubbish, and just fell off my bunk bed last night, blah

# Was really sick a few days ago, my tonsils were inflamed so my throat hurtttt, and it hurt when I swallowed too. That also meant I had headaches, and at work, I couldn’t really serve customers and work at the front coz the heat made my head spin, so I was just at the back doing prep and cleaning, which I guess is ok.

# Burnt myself on the iron, again on my right hand, so now I have two burns. My skin is no longer scar-less haha, minus my neck.

# My first burn from work, on the 1000 watt light! Yes 1000, that’s what keeps your chips hot people and it burnt me.

# From the Ikea sale, we bought strawberry plants, and they’ve been popping up like crazy. We’ve already had 2 pickings, and some are quite sweet, they’re so red too. The cucumbers are growing fast too. The other day, my mum wanted tomatoes with her omelette, and I said, if your tomato plant grew faster we could have just picked it now and used it. Growing your own stuff is so satisfying hhaha. 

# Our first pickings of strawberries

# Got my invitation to school’s A Level art exhibition, and guess who’s work they used on the invite. Oh yea yea ….

MINE!

I want to take full advantage of this summer. Do everything I can to enjoy my time, try new things, discover new places, learn something different, achieve things. Obviously I will always have my lazy days in, but even then, I should do something productive, clean up, do some laundry etc, anything to keep busy, help others and prevent a day being wasted. In my mind, I have a bunch of stuff I want to do, and since I constantly write lists, might aswell blog about it.

#1 LCC Summer course
#2 Summer reading list, so far I’ve just been re-reading Memoirs of a Geisha, and currently Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
#3 my 18th birthday, more about this later
#4 pass my driving test
#5 clean out my room
#6 a holiday with my family and one with friends
#7 new Wii games and controller
#8 find new places to go shopping or just new shops
#9 drive somewhere for weekend or weekday breaks, like the beach, or out of London
#10 organise and clean areas in the house, such as the kitchen cabinets
#11 blog about everything, simply because I want to remember it all

Hmm, seems abit vague, but I don’t have anything proper planned. If I don’t pass my driving test, going for weekend or weekday breaks would be more expensive with travel, and also late nights out would cause a problem of how to get home. Also, I’m still working weekends. But the whole concept of my plan is to be productive and enjoy everyday.

#3 my 18th birthday. I have no idea what to do, I don’t have a really large circle of close friends so I wouldn’t have a big debut or something, or have some big party. I thought maybe go out to eat, clubbing, sleepover at mine and stay up all night, or go away on holiday with friends, or drive somewhere overnight. I really am stuck. I went on lastminute.com earlier, looking for prices, holiday deals, cruises, weekend breaks, that sort of thing. Then I thought, when should I go, a day after my birthday, on the actual day, before my birthday? I don’t think I can commit to even a weeklong holiday this month or July, coz of driving, the first week of August would be my LCC Summer course, then 2 weeks after my birthday, I might be going Spain with my family. So when? And who would even come, I’m sure people would have excuses like I have no money, gosh.

I’ve got a banging headache right now. The past week has drained me completely, that I’ve had such an off day today. I feel so groggy and spent the day arguing with Lon over really stupid stuff. Other than that though, last week was a perfect start to the “super duper packed and busy plus fun and enjoyable summer holiday” I want.

Wed 18th : Accidentally sent a text for Mariecell to Lon concerning his surprise birthday. Stupid me, I’m so used to scrolling down to Lon’s name and hitting send without thinking. Spent the next five minutes stomping around the kitchen swearing at myself, telling myself off, and texting Lon again begging him not to read the text coz it’s “about his birthday present”, which is half true, but the rest was about the food for the surprise birthday. Held myself back from going out coz I was nervous about going shopping on my own haha. Eventually did leave about 4 hours later. Lon calls, telling me he read the text (noo!!) and that he’s ruined his surprise, aww. When he asks, I make up excuses about his surprise, which thank goodness I didn’t actually say in the text. Spend the next few hours walking up and down Oxford Street and around Carnaby Street, browsing around shops slowly, so slowly that in almost every shop, sales assistants approach me asking if I need help coz I look lost haha. It was then I realised how difficult it is shopping for Lon, especially that his style changes all the time. But after going around our usual hidden treasure shops, Selfridges, Evisu and making friends with some of the sales assistants, I successfully bought his presents! Since he knew about the Swatch watch I wanted to get him, we met later on and he chose the one he wanted. The end of “celebrating your last day as a 17 year old and getting your watch which means your a man now” day!

Thurs 19th : My plan was to travel to Lon’s really early and surprise him and make him breakfast. BUT of course, that didn’t exactly go to plan. He ended up calling me when I wasn’t even half way to his house and it turns out he was up already. Gosh. Tried to make it up by running from the station, but that only ended up with me having stitches and trying to act normal at the same time haha, gosh I’m so unfit. Spent the morning and early afternoon in bed, watching TV, eating pizza and chips and listening to music. Then we started getting ready to go theatre, coz i booked tickets yesterday morning to watch ‘Into The Hoods’, something we’ve been wanting to watch for agessss, and also because some of the cast are part of his dance group. While he’s getting ready, I ran to the toilet to take pictures wearing my new blazer that I bought ages ago just haven’t worn out yet. Love it! ‘Into The Hoods’ aswell, I don’t even know how to describe. The use of hip-hop and other dance styles should be used more in West End Theatre, and as this is the first, I hope hope hope there’s more coming. Guy’s, if you like dance, hip hop, or just want to be inspired and see something different from the theatre, I recommend ‘Into The Hoods’, especially that I was able to get £10 tickets with amazing seats!

Fri 20th : Despite being utterly tired from last night, and luckily being taken home by my honey, I woke up early, bathed and made my way to pick up Lon from his last exam. It was pure hassle trying to get my hands on a Metro, since someone always grabbed it first, or I was too embarrassed to straight away pick it up once someone put it down haha. Thought I was running late, but I actually got there on time, less than 5 minutes waiting, and I saw my Lonny wearing his new shirt walking down towards me with his friend. Then started the long task of keeping him busy, while his sister and cousin prepared everything at home and waited for everyone to arrive. Once they were ready, Lon was determined to eat, and we ended up walking around China Town and all sorts. Once we set home, and was nearing home, his sister text me, I knew it was her, and also knew that Lon would try to look at my phone, so I quickly hid my phone. Sigh, he ended up being upset with me, asking how come I can look through his phone and he can’t, and what am I hiding. I couldn’t help but smile, and when I tried to lean on him to hide my eagerness to see his face when he got surprised, he wouldn’t let me. Sigh. Even when we got home, he started getting all suspicious, how come the car is outside, but the door is locked. How comes blah blah blah. He took off his shoes, and started checking the phone messages, what the hell. I headed into the kitchen, and started calling him to come there, “how comes the oven is on and no-ones home”. Blah blah Lon, just get into the garden haha. I walk into the garden, and just shout for him to come here, the only way I knew he would come. “SURPRISE!”

Spent the rest of the day eating, talking about how we planned it, listening to him work out everything, me telling everyone how Lon thought I was texting other guys, messing around with the girls, talking about our “big boobs” haha, playing Nintendo 64, playing basketball, looking after the baby, playing pass the parcel and musical statues, playing badminton and baseball, which were the prizes that were left behind haha.

-camera is still broken, I’m waiting for people to post them up on facebook, plus the vid of him getting surprised haha.

# Opening his birthday presents

# Taking his first shot as a “man”

# Playing ‘Pass the parcel’ where the prize was baby shampoo and the baseball bat and ball

# Blowing his birthday cake

# Always copying other guys

I have finished my A Level summer exams! And I feel…the same. Ever since I started study leave my “holiday” has started, minus the constant regular revision days and preparation days haha. Of course, my last exam didn’t start well. I stupidly left my critical research work to the last minute, and by last minute the day before, but of course, after distracting myself for several from starting my work, I didn’t start till 8pm! Guh. I worked hard though, writing a good essay and by 11:30pm I thought, let me wake up early tomorrow and finish it off, plus my notes and cover sheet. Mistake. I underestimated how time consuming making notes are, and by 11:45, I was panicking. I had to leave by 12 and get to school and complete writing up my notes. Saved by a text! Cousin texts and says we’re being taken to school, phew add on 45 minutes. Still didn’t complete it. GRR, get to school and manic writing. Sigh, why on the last exam do I start slacking and leave it till like less than an hour before the exam. Sigh, I nearly went into the exam with my hands already hurting haha. BUT, I managed to find a good writing technique, and my hand didn’t hurt at all, just my arms coz I was so tense haha. I wrote for 1 hour and 45 minutes non-stop with 15 minutes to read over it. I’m so happy. I’m done. I’m free, even though I was “done” ages ago haha.

First thing I do as soon as I get out of the exam : eat! Time to relax, clean out my room and enjoy my summer woo woo

I think I had the worse emotional weekend so far. I woke up on Saturday thinking I was late in waking up my boyfriend, jumped out of bed and called him. I don’t even remember what was said but somehow I realised that it wasn’t him that needed waking at 9am, it was me, and slowly we both got angry and ended up arguing. Sigh. Hung up on him several times, ended up crying a lot. Whilst getting ready, I called him again, and the arguments continued, even when I was walking to work. I stood outside the workers entrance crying and begging him to stop trying to prove his point to me, coz no way did I want to walk into work crying like a crazy person. I actually wanted to go home and just curl up in bed, or even just collapse on the floor and give up, everything was getting too much. I walked on through security and work with my head down, hiding my eyes and my face from everyone. I couldn’t even tell him I loved him. Anyway, working working, I decided to plan my lunch break for when Lon was in the staff restaurant waiting to start work, and it did happen. I felt relieved seeing him, but what I really wanted was a fat hug to show me everything was ok, I guess having lunch together was good enough. I treated him and bought us lunch, and while he went to get a float, I changed him phone home screen to a picture of us, and left him a draft message. That evening, Lon didn’t call me, and I woke up at 2:45am realising he hadn’t even contacted me or anything, so i called him, surprised to hear that he’s still awake. Had another argument, questioning our whole relationship and how we treat each other. Was shouting so loud, my sister moved room, and ended up crying more guilty tears. Ended up talking till past sunrise. I couldn’t sleep though, and went toilet and walked around my room for a bit. Anyway, come 8am, I started to drift off. My alarm was set for 9am, but somehow I jumped up and it was 10:29am, thinking crap I start work in an hour!! Jumped out of bed, showered and left within 10 minutes. Breakfast wasn’t even on my mind. Ran and ran to the bus stop, ran faster when I saw a bus and the bus started driving off, shit, but then he stopped! Thank goodness! Luckily, my second bus didn’t take too long too, and I actually got to work a bit early. My legs were shaking though, and when I got in, breakfast wasn’t serving anymore. Sigh, but there was still cereal and fruit, so I had that, and felt better. Saw Lon that night, happy to see him, and especially that it was our anniversary. Gosh what a post, the end of my emotional weekend, time to concentrate on my exam!

Yesterdays exams, I hope went as well as I thought. The questions they gave us this year was so woo woo GREAT! BUT, this is what I said about my critical research in January, so let’s just see my results in August. But overall, I think I did do my very very best, even though in my second exam of the day after being in isolation with 6 other girls for 2 hours and 45 minutes, my head was about to explode as I tried to recall all the stuff I revised for my essay. So now, I have only one more exam left, well retake, and right now I’m on the brink, well beginning stages of having a lazy day in haha. But I will try and do something productive haha.

Other than exams, I love my sandals! I been wearing them around the house and in my room like everyday since I bought them, even in bed whilst I was reading, but then took them off when I fell asleep haha. Boohoo though, coz the day after I bought them, the weather took a rainy turn, and the temperature dropped, so back with jackets and jumpers and all that. Gosh. Last night, I even wanted to go and get my extra duvet that i put away just like 2 days ago.

 UPDATE!

My first productive thing for today, called up Currys about my camera and whether it’s still insured and all that. Turns out its not, and could cost over £100 depending on what’s wrong with it. Gosh. Gonna go there today hopefully just to make sure and see if they can fix it, if not I’m going to get a new one woo woo! However, my current camera still feels like its working, like it takes pictures etc, just it has lines going through it and all. Sigh, I’m not ready to just abandon it just yet =(

My major A Level exams are tomorrow, Media Studies and Sociology and I’m so nervous, yea probably how everyone else is feeling. I know I’ve done alot of revision, but of course, probably just like everyone else, I still don’t feel its enough. I’m still revising and testing myself now, whilst looking at past papers and what topics they asked, and writing my own list of “How to answer questions in sociology exam” haha. I want to have everything prepared for tomorrow, my lunch, revision stuff and text books I need to hand back, coz my two exams clash, so I’ll have to take one of them earlier, meaning I’ll be with an invigilator in between. Sigh, no talking and no checking up on how Lon’s exam went. Adding to my problems, I think I have insomnia or something. Or maybe its just the hot nights. These past few nights, I’ve got into bed early and still, I struggle to sleep, and always wake up at 5am, and more recently, at 3am and 5am. Maybe I’m just nervous. Sigh.